We don’t usually bring the kids with us for the prenatal checkups since it’s done on Monday nights – their bedtime is around 8.30pm and I don’t like to change their routine unnecessarily, plus I treat it like a date night for Shahril and I. :)  But since it’s school holidays, we brought them along last Monday night.


Went to register first before Maghrib without the kids, so that we could get an early number and lucky us, we were the first for that night. Lepas register, went for a quick dinner, solat… and went back to KPMC. kebetulan pulak Dr A came early too.. so we were called in at 7.45 instead of 8pm.


Afiq and Mariessa were excited to have a look at the baby, Adreena looked rather scared. Takut kena cucuk kot. Hehe.


Bila Dr A checked blood pressure:


Adreena: Mama… Mama akit tak? Mama otey tak? (repeat 3 times) :P Penat Mama jawab.


Bila Dr A suruh baring for the ultrasound.. she looked really scared. Ayah dukung pun tak nak. Last2 nurse yang tolong dukung, dekat2 ngan Mama


Adreena: Mama.. Mama otey tak?

Mama: Mama ok, sayang

Adreena: Mama… Mama owait tak?

Nurse: Apa dia cakap tu?

Mama: Dia tanya.. Mama alright tak.. Heheheh

Nurse: Wah… dah tanya ok.. tanya alright ke tak pulak. Hahahah

Adreena: Mama.. Mama … … … …  ….  tak?

Mama: tak lah!

Dr. A: What did she say?

Mama: Entah doctor, saya pun tak tau. Saya jawab je.. hehehe


Afiq just looked at the screen, transfixed.

Mariessa looked at me, worried.


Alhamdulillah.. semuanya OK. Blood test result was ok, so was the urine test. Alhamdulillah. Next checkup will be a week before christmas, InsyaAllah.


Balik rumah,

Afiq: Mama.. Abang tak faham la tengok TV ada baby tadi! Abang tak nampak pun muka dia!

Mama: Memang la sayang, baby kecik sgt lagi.. susah lagi kita nak tengok

Mariessa: Mama.. baby gerak2 tak? Mama sakit tak?

Mama: Tak.. baby dah tido kot.

Mariessa: Kenapa baby asyik kena tidoooooo je? Dia tak boring ke asyik tido je dalam perut Mama?


I foresee many many more questions coming in the next 6 months. :)

Mariessa: Mama, apa nama baby dalam perut Mama?
Mama: Baby belum ada nama lagi, sayang.
Mariessa: Haaaaa? Kenapa baby takde nama lagi?
Mama: Sebab kita belum tau lagi baby ni girl ke boy.
Afiq: Mesti lah boy! Abang dah tau dah nak letak nama apa kat baby boy.
Mama: Iye? Abang nak letak nama apa?
Afiq: Alex!
Mama: Alex?
Afiq: Ha-ah! A.L.E.X ejaan dia, tau Mama?

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Today marks the last day of Afiq at Little Caliphs. I kinda overlooked this fact, so malam tadi baru kelam kabut beli kertas elok2 sikit for the kids to make Thank You cards to be given to their teachers.


Told him that it’s going to be his last day today at Little Caliphs. He just shrugged..”Abang tau.. lepas tu Abang cuti forty one days kan? Lepas tu Abang masuk Sekolah Kebangsaan kan?”. So I reminded him to make sure he salam2 all the teachers and his friends today before coming home. (Mama yang melancholic semacam, anaknya rilekkkkk je)


He called me kejap tadi…

Afiq: Mama.. Abang dah faham. Abang dah last day kan kat Little Caliphs? Lepas ni Abang tak pegi situ dah kan? (He actually sounded a little mellow)

Mama: Ya sayang. Abang bagi tak card tadi kat teachers?

Afiq: Bagi… Mama.. Abang nak tanya, boleh? (When he said ‘tanya’.. sometimes it doesn’t necessarily means he wants to ask a question, it’s just his way of saying he wants to say something)

Mama: Boleh….

Afiq: Tapi Abang rasa sedih sikit lah.

Mama: Kenapa Abang sedih? (Mama syahdu dah time ni)

Afiq: Tapi nanti Abang tak dapat la jumpa semua kawan kawan Abang… Abang takde kawan lah macam ni! Nanti Abang boring tau?

Mama: Takpe la.. nanti bila Abang masuk Sekolah Kebangsaan, boleh kenal ramaiiiiii kawan lagi, k?

Afiq: Hmmmm… OK lah, Mama.


I guess, it finally dawned on him eh?




My little caliph. :)

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Last night while going through Mariessa’s writing book,


Afiq: Mama… Tulisan Kakak ni macam cakar harimau kan?

Mama: Cakar harimau? Hahahahahahhaha…… Bukan harimau lah sayang….

Afiq: Eh silap! Cakar ayam kan, Mama?


That was really funny, if only he knows what cakar harimau means. :D


Afiq’s bahasa has always impressed me, albeit a little ‘text book’. I didn’t know he has started using peribahasa though… so his attempt at cakar ayam was an impressive one nonetheless. Of course, this should not be too surprising coming from a boy who says sentences like:


1. Biar Abang beri penjelasan pada Mama…

2. Boleh tak Mama terangkan kat Abang…

3. Terlalu sedap lah, Mama….  (referring to cakes or muffins made by Mama, ehem!)

Zebra Cake Selingan: a cake I made yesterday. I wanted a plain butter cake, Afiq insisted on a chocolate cake. So I told him, let’s compromise! ;).

He loves it! Ate 2 slices right after I took it out from the oven. (He wanted more, I said No. :D)


4. Sempurna! (after we sent his bicycle for repair)



Adreena is talking a lot more too. Kadang2 rasa terkejut, from just some random baby’s babbles, now she has moved to almost full sentences.


Contoh terbaru this morning, I went to the toilet just before leaving for work. Dia pun sibuk laaaa ketuk2 pintu & panggil “Mama! Mama! Mama wat pe tuuuuuuuuuuuu”. Terbantut hajat Mama tau! The moment I stepped out of the toilet je… terus dia tanya..

Adreena: Mama uti? Ape Mama uti? (Mama potty? Kenapa Mama potty?).

Mama: Mama sakit perut la dik…

Adreena: Mama uti.. akit yuyut?


Heheheh.. Still la abundance of ‘y’ nya.. 

boya = bola

koyah = sekolah

tutah = susah (when asked to do something too difficult for her, or she’s just too lazy to do it.. :P )

abiuuuu = i love you


A few days ago, while she was sitting on my lap

Mama: Macam mana Deena sayang baby?

* she immediately bent down and kissed my tummy*

Deena (buncitkan perut ke depan, point to her tummy): Mama… tayang baby!



I’ve been wanting to write about Little Caliphs’ concert last week, but there are just too many pictures to choose from. :) Will get to it soon, InsyaAllah. In the meantime.. let me just put a video of Mariessa’s performance on that day. One that took us by surprise, sebab we didn’t know she was going to co-lead the performance. The quality isn’t so good, though so please bear with it. Enjoy the show!



For days she was telling me she was going to do a ‘bey-han’ show.. but I could not figure out what ‘bey-han’ was. Bila tengok the agenda of the concert baru lah tahu… “Bey-han” = Bear Hunt. Hehe

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On Friday morning, while most people were making a big fuss about the date 11.11.11, I was at home ‘nursing’ my nausea (among other things) which didn’t seem to lessen eventhough I’m already in the (much awaited) 2nd trimester. At about 10am,  I received a frantic call from a colleague…


A: Ainil, ko dah dengar berita belum?

Me: Berita apa??? 

Terduduk rasanya bila dapat berita yang memang tak disangka sangka. A dear, dear friend passed away while in labor that very morning due to birth complications. Her baby – her 3rd child, the first girl after 2 boys, didn’t make it too.


She was my ‘pumping’ buddies. I was pumping for Adreena back in 2010 while she was pumping for Luqman who is a few months older than Adreena. Our similar pumping schedule gave us plenty of time to talk about everything under the sun – juggling kids without a maid (I didnt have one then), pasal lecehnyaaaaa kena lipat kain…. issues of breastfeeding, breastpumps.. etc. She was a very easy person to like. In fact, there’s nothing not to ‘not’ like about her. Always smiling. Whenever I go to the surau to pump, mesti check dulu kasut dia ada ke tak kat luar surau. There’s just something about her.


I stopped pumping when I got pregnant in March this year. By then she had stopped pumping too. So, our ‘gossip’ sessions ended too. We seldom see each other in the office, she was seated at the other end and later transferred to another block. When she first found out about this blog of mine, she got very excited! Told me she spent days reading old entries. She loved it when I wrote about my children and told me I inspired her to write about hers too, so she can read about them when they grow older.. but she didn’t know where to start. I’ve never asked if she eventually wrote anything.


I last saw her a few months back. We bumped into each other at the printer (of all places. :) ). She was already pregnant then.


I last spoke to her sometime after Aidilfitri. She called just to catch up, and she was among the first person I shared my news of this pregnancy with. She was of course very happy for me and told me that her doctor had told her she’s expecting a girl, as she had hoped. That call lasted almost half an hour but I certainly didn’t think it was going to be our last chat.


The whole last week I thought of giving her a call, knowing that she’s due in November. I regret not picking up the phone to call her. :(


When I read her FB wall, it’s just amazing to discover that my thoughts of her is very much similar to what her other friends think of her too. Always with a smile on her face, an easy person to work with… and sangat2 menjaga silaturrahim. MasyaAllah… all the qualities I am very much lacking of. There’s a lot to learn from her.


I was told that there were sooooooo many people during her funeral. At the surau and at the kubur. Berpuluh2 kereta! Itu lah tanda2nya bila orang yang baik pergi meninggalkan kita, kan? There were a lot of people yesterday too, when the office organized a ‘majlis bacaan yasin & tahlil’ untuk arwah after work at the office.


It was heart breaking, but I think Allah has given her one of the best endings a woman can have. Mati shahid ketika melahirkan, di pagi hari Jumaat – penghulu segala hari… dan ditemankan puteri cahaya iman (Nurul Iman) di dalam kubur. Semoga roh mereka tenang dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang orang yang beriman. Semoga suaminya Hafidz dan dua anak lelakinya Ikhwan & Luqman dikurniakan kesabaran dan ketabahan untuk menempuh ujian yang sangat hebat ini.


You are and will always be missed, my dear friend.


Al Fatihah buat Allahyahrmah Rozi Hartini Binti Abdul Aziz dan puterinya Nurul Iman.


Her friends wrote about her too here, here and here.

So one day Uncle Fik came over to surprise the kids with one box of crayon each. Suka lah hati masing2 nya…


The first day after receiving the crayons, I came home to Adreena yang kat muka pun penuh dengan contengan crayon nya! Leher pun segala warna ada. Biru? Hijau? Merah? Meriah!


The next day, lepas park kereta depan rumah je, nampak Adreena dah excited kat sliding door.. “Mama, nuk ni! nuk ni!” while pointing at something on the floor.


Masuk2 rumah je… nin dia…………..



Habis carpet jadi mangsa!

Crime took place righttttttttttt in front of Ayah yang sedang membaca suratkhabar, jangan tak tau! :P



Not only dia mengaku menconteng tu, malahan proud of it some more! Hai lah anak.

Tengok tu, makan muffin pun bawak crayon ok?

(Ya, tanda ‘peace’ masih belum menjadi)



Gambar selingan. Choc chips muffin. Comment from muffin boy: “Sungguh sedap sekali, Mama!” :)

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On Friday last week, right after I left home for work, Afiq fell off his new bicycle, luka kat lutut. Besar jugak la lukanya, ada la dekat2 besar coins 50sen rasanya. I did snap a picture of it, tapi sendiri pun ngeri tengok, so tak payah la letak. :)


On Saturday Shahril & I took Adreena alone with us during our monthly shopping trip at Mydin USJ. We figured the kids sometimes need one-to-one attention so Saturday was for Adreena. A few hours after we came home from the shopping trip, Adreena panjat katil, entah mcm mana terjatuh and kepala terkena side table. Meraung tok sah nak cakap la, Shahril pegang2 kepala dia… tiba2 kat tangan ada darah! Huiiiiii.. menyirap darah saya! Panik! Check check check… tengok it was her ear. Luka terkena bucu side table tu agaknya. Tuam sekejap dengan ais, took out our First Aid Kit, put some ubat.. letak kapas and lekat kan kat telinga dia.


AdreenaJatuh1 Lepas habis nangis, minum fufuk sebotol terus tertido



Ni petangnya. Melantun dah. Tu nampak tak terselit lagi kapas kat telinga tu? Dia tak bagi Mama usik telinga dia lagi masa ni.

Teddy bear tu Ayah baru belikan utk Adreena, advanced birthday gift. Ke hulur ke hilir dia usung “Eddy” (short for teddy bear). Bila nak tido pun, dia tepuk2 Eddy dulu suruh Eddy tido. :P


Ahad turn Afiq & Mariessa pulak for some special attention. I sent the boys to watch Real Steel as I feel it was a good father and son movie. (I watched it alone on Friday lepas ambik report card anak2, hehe). Oh Hugh Jackman! :P


Mariessa & I went out for some fun ourselves. Mula2 she requested to go ‘main’. So yang paling senang and dekat… bawak aje ke Playland @ Tesco Kajang.


MariessaPlayland1 Berseri seri mukanya. RM 5 well spent!


Then I took her to Pustaka Rakyat in Bangi, since she loves books so much. Kalau ikut dia, semuaaaaa buku pun dia nak beli. “Yang ni Kakak boleh baca ni, Mama.. Yang ni pun boleh… Ni pun sama…” :P


After an hour or so in the bookstore, Mariessa looked tired. I asked if she wanted to go to the clinic sebab the previous night dia mcm demam sikit, padahal baru je 2 minggu sebelum tu demam and doctor dah bagi pun antibiotic. So we went to the clinic. Told the Doctor that I thought she was wheezing the night before, which is something that has never happened before. Doctor checked and true enough, she was wheezing a little. Terpaksa la guna nebulizer for the first time in her young life.


MariessaNeb She looked tired, kan?


Kids, sementara nak besar, ye tak? :)




Yesterday we took Afiq to the clinic pulak, sebab we need to determine his blood group – salah satu rekod yang sekolah perlukan. For Mariessa and Adreena, it’s written in their birth records, the ones that have their immunization details tu. Yang Afiq, takde tulis pulak. We went to the clinic, the clinic advised us to go to the blood lab instead, lagi cepat dia kata. Plus kalau buat kat klinik, kena ambik banyak darahnya. Kalau buat kat lab tu, they’ll just prick him a little. Nasib baik there’s one betul2 in Kajang town, so we went there.


AfiqBloodTest1 Afiq rilek je masa ni. He’s very good bab2 kena cucuk2 ni. Unlike his Mama. Hehe

(Pictures are taken by Mariessa)


Lepas kena cucuk…

Mama: Sakit tak bang?

Afiq: Hmm.. Abang rasa macam kena sepit je Mama!


That’s my boy! ;)



MariessaAfiqBloodTest Mariessa dah pucat dah masa ni, takut dia pulak next. Hehe. Ni memang ikut Mama bab2 kena cucuk.


Alhamdulillah, dah tau dah blood group Afiq. We now have all the info we need for the ‘Borang Maklumat Murid’, Alhamdulillah.

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Alhamdulillah, I am now entering the 14th week of my pregnancy. I’ve been wanting to share this news with the world, but considering what happened previously, I thought I should wait until it’s a little more ‘safe’ to do so – as babycenter puts it: “your risk of miscarriage is now much lower than earlier in pregnancy” – Alhamdulillah, it’s exactly what I needed to hear.


For the record, this is actually my 6th pregnancy: Afiq (I think I did write about it in my old blog. Unfortunately I don’t remember the URL. How silly. Who forgets the URL of her own blog? Aduh!).. Then miscarriage No 1, Mariessa, Adreena, and then miscarriage No 2. Although the ‘critical’ time is over, I am praying hard that this time it will be smooth sailing, InsyaAllah.


As this will probably be my last pregnancy (one can only plan, ;) ), I am hoping to jot down this experience as much as I can for my own remembrance. Better late than never, ye tak?


We found out about this pregnancy on the 2nd morning of Eid this year. I was waiting for the monthly visit towards the end of Ramadhan, but it didn’t come. It just so happened that our car’s battery ‘died’ on the 1st of Eid, so Shahril was forced to go to town to get a replacement. Alang2 ke town, I asked him to buy me the HPT kit, just to be sure. True enough, it came out positive. Alhamdulillah. So we shared the news with my family over breakfast. Nobody had expected it judging by the gaping mouths and momentary silence. Haha.


I’ve always said that I want to stop ‘producing’ by the age of 35 and Alhamdulillah I’ll be 34 next year. Cepat setahun pencen is indeed a bonus. ;)


Dalam pada cepat setahun pun, I feel really, really old this time around. My energy level during pregnancy is totally different than the previous ones. I am so lah lembiknya this time. Nausea is much worse than I remember and the fatigue? Oh my God, horrible! Of course this convinces me more that this will and should be my last.


We started seeing the gynae at week 6. This time I decided to see Dr A and she has been as informative as I hoped, Alhamdulillah. She prescribed me with Duphaston as a precaution since the beginning and so far so good! :)


In the beginning, when people around me (mostly colleagues) started knowing about my pregnancy, their reaction would be. “Hah? LAGI?”… followed by… “Yang kecik tu umur berapa?”… and lastly..”oooo… dah 2 tahun, ingatkan kecik lagi”. The most dramatic reaction was from a guy.. When told that I am expecting, he slumped in his chair and said..”laaaagi? Hui! Pengsan!” I have absolutely NO idea why he feels the need to pengsan though.


Anyway, last night was my 3rd checkup with Dr. A. I, who gets nervous and excited for all petty reasons possible, was of course nervous and excited. :P. Ye lah, Dr A in the last checkup herself said… “Kalau by 14 weeks nanti semua ok, InsyaAllah… everything will be alright”.




So, here’s baby A.. at 14 weeks.

Dr A measured the head, the backbone and also the hip. Everything looks perfect! Alhamdulillah.


The calculated EDD given by Dr. A is May 4th 2012. Kalau awal 3 hari, that would be our 8th wedding anniversary. If earlier than that, looks like Baby A will be joining April babies: Abang Afiq & Kakak Mariessa. :)


Please pray that this journey will be a smooth sailing one for us, InsyaAllah.