I told my friend, Deknun about the existence of this blog. She knew my old blog of course, but I couldn't bring myself to tell anyone (yet) about this blog. I don't know why. I want to tell, but I dont really want to tell. Does that make sense? Well, maybe not. I don't always make sense anyway. So, that's not new.

Talked to Deknun about her wedding preparations. She's tying the knot this August, and I am most definitely happy for her. I am actually looking forward to attend her kenduri. It would be Afiq's first kenduri kahwin. ;) How very exciting!!

Talking about wedding preparations with Deknun, reminds me of my time doing it. Oh, how very busy I was. Everything needed to be bought and carefully thought of. It was hectic, nerve wrecking, tiring.. but darn exciting! I felt like shouting "Hey World!! I'm getting MMMAAARRRIIIIEEEEDDDD!!" And the best thing of all, i'm marrying the man of my dreams. A man I thought did not, could not, exist for the whole idea seemed a little too ideal. I've always dreamed of a guy who would have the guts to just ask me to marry him. A guy who is in love (enough) with me, to have no doubts whatsoever in proposing to me. And I've always thought that it would definitely be nice if I could find someone, get married and fall real hard in love AFTER we're married. And a small miracle if you want to call it that, along came Hubby. Though he didnt exactly proposed on our first date, he made his intentions clear enough for me to understand. And it took us only 2 months from our first date to get enganged, and another 4 months to get married. And yes, I fell in love with my husband over and over and over again.


I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way.

That this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

So dear, I've said this this morning when you sent me to work like I always do, and I say this every night before we both fell asleep, and you know I'll say this just whenever I feel like saying it, because I do mean it. I can't say it enough, but I'll just tell you now, one more time.. I love you so!!
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