Yesterday, 6.30-ish pm, from Ampang to Cheras on MRR2 near Pandan – the Queen of all bottleneck areas on MRR2. Bumper to bumper. I was on the most right lane. Not moving.

Suddenly a Kelisa from the middle lane, bagi signal ke kanan and terussssssssssss je nak masuk in front of me. Did I mention that it was bumper to bumper and we were NOT moving? The driver was a young woman. The car has P sticker. And her car was then slanting in between the most right lane and the middle lane causing motorists to stop. Causing more jam and more noise. Motor2 semua dah “pin! pin! pin!”

Then I saw her hentak2 both hands on the steering dengan muka cemas. Ye lah, byk oooo motor beratur belakang kereta dia, and it was drizzling! Soon after that she  got in front of me, her car was still slightly slanting so I could see her in full view. She then rolled her window down, stuck her face out, and examined her face on the side mirror. Rain and all, I kid you not! She must have had a major pimple issue, I thought. Major AND critical!

Guess what she did the very moment the could get her car straight in front of me? She moved back to the middle lane.

I think that girl has a very serious issue. As major and as critical as her pimple problem.

thinks P is for Poyo

Last Sunday, lepas mandi:

Mariessa: Mama, kakak dah besar la Mama, kakak tak payah pakai diapers dah! Kakak dah pandai ‘chin’ kat ‘tailet’.

So dengan berdebar2nya, we let her go diaper-less lah for the day. Padahal dah lamaaaa dah we’ve been trying to pujuk her into going diaper-less.

And walla, NO Accidents! :)

Balik from nursery semalam:

Mariessa: Mama, tadi kat sekolah (nursery), kakak tak pakai diaperssssssssss!!! (sambil moncong2 ni)  Kakak pandaaaaaiiiii!!

2 days and NO accidents!

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Note to Ngah: Somehow, this reminds me of Kitreena. Tak nak tak nak try something new… tiba2 one day terus terror je kan? Sooooo Kitreena betul tak?

The past 2 nights jugak, tiap2 malam Mariessa suruh call Aunty Mas. Sebabnya, dia nak nyanyi lagu Happy Birthday to Aunty Mas. Padahal dah nak dekat sebulan dah lepas birthday Aunty Mas nya! Instead of ‘Happy Birthdayyyy to you….” she will sing “Hatty Bir-bay to youuuuuu” pastu last sekali berbisik je… “Aunty Maaaaaaas”. Heheheh

In exactly 38 days, Mariessa will turn 3. Where did the time go???

(ala-ala suci dalam debu… kuang3)

I am supposed to be on leave today. But due to a meeting that was scheduled today, like a responsible person that I am (still in appraisal mode, hence the masuk bakul statement), I postponed my leave to next week. 30 freaking minutes before the scheduled meeting, it got cancelled!

Sakit tak sakit hati????

Oleh sebab itu, saya isytiharkan hari ni sebagai hari saya bercuti di ofis. Yey Me!!

Some pictures, untuk menyejukkan hati yang panassssss. ;)

anak3collageNgah said she thinks Adreena looks different from Afiq & Mariessa. What do you think?  Cer teka which one is Afiq/Mariessa/Adreena?

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Kanak2 riang atas pelamin. Anak sapaaaa lah ni?

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One is more excited than the other, actually. Susah nak dapat mood Mariessa posing2 mcm ni. :)

 

Sejuk dalam panas ------

1. InsyaAllah, saya nak mulakan azam baru saya hari ni. Buat pertama kalinya, saya tiba-tiba je dapat hidayah nak buat azam baru. Azam yang kali ni berbeza dari azam2 yang lain sebab kali ni azam saya bukan untuk kuruskan badan. (Itu azam saya dari 7 tahun lepas, kontrak azam tu asyik terpaksa dilanjutkan aje dari tahun ke tahun, sampai dah tak boleh dikategorikan sebagai azam lagi dah). Harap2 azam saya yang ini akan dapat saya laksanakan. InsyaAllah.

2. Penilaian prestasi kerja saya untuk tahun 2009 telah pun selesai minggu lepas. Tak tidur saya satu malam terfikir2. Alhamdulillah, umpamanya saya jangka akan dibaham harimau, tapi akhirnya saya digigit semut saja. It could not get any better – itu lah yang boleh saya katakan. Saya harap itu cukup baik untuk saya terus bekerja di sini. Kita tunggu dan lihat. :)

3. Dalam satu mesyuarat baru2 ni, buat pertama kalinya sejak saya di sini (seingat saya-lah), mesyuarat itu dimulakan dengan bacaan Al-Fatihah dan diakhiri dengan surah Al-Asr. Baru saya sedar betapa lamanya saya tak jumpa rutin sebegini. Susah saya nak gambarkan betapa syahdunya perasaan saya. Sejuk hati saya. Tambah2 pula, tuan pengerusi mesyuarat itu, ‘handsome’ orangnya. Betullah, sesetengah orang, makin tua makin handsome pulak. Macam Richard Gere. Ok, dah terkeluar topik pulak saya.

4. Baru2 ini seorang rakan lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa saya telah terjumpa saya di Facebook. Lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tu, maksud saya rakan saya di All Saint’s Taiping tahun 1985 sampai 1988 dulu. Hebat betul!

5. Afiq telah memeluk saya dengan penuh girangnya malam tadi, hanya kerana saya telah belikan serunding daging yang stoknya telah pun habis. Kejadian kehabisan stok serunding memang jarang2 berlaku di rumah saya. Tak kira lah serunding dari Kelantan, Labuan, Alor Setar mahupun serunding Pasar Tani Kajang bila keadaan memaksa. Terima kasih Aba kerana telah mengimport serunding daging dari Aloq Staq itu untuk saya. Hanya sebab serunding, mood Afiq baik dari malam tadi, sampailah ke pagi ni. Sekali saja saya suruh dia mandi pagi tadi, terus dia buat! Kalau pagi lain, selagi tak dua belas kali… jangan haraplah dia nak bukak baju. Dan disebabkan serunding jugalah, malam tadi saya tak perlu nak memaksa Afiq untuk makan. Lemang 2 ringgit yang saya beli di pasar malam habis dimakan Afiq dan Mariessa sahaja.

6. Pagi tadi sambil Afiq memakai baju, dia bercerita. “Mama, kawan Abang kat sekolah dia jawab banyak kali bila Teacher tanya.. dia dapat TEN sweets, Mama!” “Abang dapat berapa sweets?” “Abang dapat three je” “Kenapa Abang tak jawab banyak2 macam kawan Abang?” “Abang jawab banyak… tapi salah. Hihihihii”. Saya rasa kelakar juga anak saya ni. Dan hari ni, dia sgt excited nak pegi sekolah, sebab dia dah ingat hari ni hari apa. “Friday, friday, friday!”

P1010434Hasil kraftangan Afiq yang pertama di Little Caliphs

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Ini hasil lukisan Afiq. Di whiteboard di dapur saya.

Begitulah adanya

Once in a while I guess we are bound to make silly mistakes. Okay maybe not ‘we’.. but I.

Made one yesterday and more than anything it made me want to  curl and puke and take a trip to the Moon and come back in about….. 73 days.

Poof!!!

Never make decisions when you are angry.

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Never make promises when you are happy.

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hmmmmmmmmm….

 

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mind. Mine that is.

  • A few friends who read this blog have expressed concerns about my status with The Company. Alhamdulillah, I am safe. For now at least. The ‘2nd’ wave hit the shore last Monday, this time taking with it some unexpected people. If the first storm was obviously about performance, the recent one is rather vague. No one knows for sure the reason behind it. It is therefore anyone’s guess as to who’s next.
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  • Greetings these days instead of “Hi how are you?” would be “ Hey, you’re still here!!”. Very not funny, but spot on.
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  • And now, it’s assessment time again. People looking absolutely clueless staring at their laptop screen is a common sight across the office. I especially find it very2 hard to masuk bakul and angkat sendiri this time around. It was never easy but never this difficult. Said bakul, needless to say isn’t very big right now. I don’t feel like making it any bigger anyway. What do I have to worry about more now? The bakul being small, or the fact that I don’t have the heart to make it bigger?
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  • Jobstreets I’m sure has noticed a lot of people updating their resumes these past 2 weeks or so.
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  • I’ve always wondered why I just cannot get along with a certain someone. And unfortunately, during a meeting very recently I suddenly came to a conclusion (obviously my mind was wandering). It’s the arrogance that’s bothering me. Being good at what one does is one thing, but being arrogant about it is another thing all together! I have not been able to put a label on it, but now that I have I think it’s just making it more difficult.

09022010 where it’s peaceful and calm

- surfacing for air

A couple of weeks ago, I decided that enough is enough with Mariessa’s hair. I love her hair, don’t get me wrong. On little girls like her, curly hair is extra adorable! Although the fact remains that we have NO idea where she gets it from other than cousin Kitreena. :D

So one fine day, we took her to a hair salon nun jauh di sana in Jelebu and cut her hair short.  09012010(006)

1st ‘crime’ scene

But then, a week later, I began to feel that it wasn’t short enough since I still have to ‘ikat’ her hair to keep it neat. Miserable hair = Miserable Mariessa = Miserable Mama.

31012010(001) With cousin Sofia

So last Saturday, I took her to another hair salon near my place. And I said I want it short. Very, very, really short! Alang2 dah potong rambut kan, biar pendek terus!

06022010The 2nd ‘crime’ scene

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Taraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…..

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She’s saying… ‘lagi kali!!!” – means lagi sekali suruh ambik gambar dia. Looks different ey? She loves it + I love it = One happy family!

- All pictures are taken with my phone. These days even taking out the camera from my bag proves to be too much a task! No kidding. That’s how busy I am. Yup. True.

I don’t want to be here today. I really don’t.

In a few hours since my last post, things are going downhill so fast. Worse news keep coming as if the last one we heard just minutes ago isn’t bad enough. At this rate, I don’t know what the total number would be at the end of the day. It looks very scary as no one is spared it seems. I don’t think anyone feels 100% safe at this moment. And I don’t think anyone is doing any real work today either.

But then again, there is no such thing as preparing for the storm is there?

The news that is buzzing in the office is very unsettling, to say the least. In every corner, people are whispering to each other as if the others have no clue on what they are whispering about. I am pretty sure even those who are not whispering among themselves are actually thinking about the same thing. And those who are typing away on the laptops pretending that they are not affected by the news and that the world revolves just as it did a few days ago, I bet they are thinking about the same thing too.

As for myself, I am obviously thinking about what the others are thinking about too. I am still debating whether I should feel motivated by the news (I should be, if I can be optimistic enough) or I should succumb to the devastation and let myself be demotivated (it’s hard not to be).

It does not seem wise, if it’s not downright irritating to console those who are directly affected, with the word Fate. But then again, what else can be said about such tragic? That God has other plans for them? I wish I know what to say without sounding lame or insensitive. I wish I know what they want to hear, what they need to hear, because sitting there in silence, listening to their sobs, just doesn’t feel enough.

I am sending my prayers towards their paths, hoping that (as lame as this may sound), their next destination is a greener field.

1.  When you see me posting more than one entry in a day, that means I’m swamped with work. Strange, but it’s true. I am one of those people who can actually work better under pressure. (Or so I think).

2. I don’t know if this is even anatomically possible, but I’m having selsema only on one side of my nose. No kidding. Sebelah je selsema. Sebelah lagi sihat walafiat. Anybody has experienced this before? Is this possible? This has been going on for 3 days now. Strange isn’t it? But it’s so so true.

 

Gambar tiada kaitan dengan entry tapi saja nak letak:

09012010(003) Before

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After

On my 3rd day back at work, 3 photos of the little bugs bunny.:D

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Thank you ‘Aunty Aba’ for the cute outfit!!! :D

With Love, Love, Love…

For some reasons beyond me, I’ve always had problem in doing anything the 2nd time. For example, if I try a new recipe, and it turns out a success the first time around, I can be almost sure that the 2nd time will be a disaster, no matter what I do. First time I baked a bread it turned out so soft and fluffy. 2nd attempt – sooo keras, kalau baling kat dinding, boleh retak dinding tu!

From major experience like…My first pregnancy went almost without a glitch. The 2nd time I was pregnant, I miscarried without even knowing I was actually pregnant.

To minor incidents like… The first email I sent out when I was transferred to the HQ went out OK (I am very particular about emails relating to work), my 2nd email - I forgot to put in the ‘Subject’, causing me to receive an email from my boss (who is, as you can see, just as particular, if not a 100 times more), reminding me that little things like forgetting the ‘Subject’ is not acceptable and that I should be very careful about such things. I tell you, I so wanted to smack my head on my desk that very moment.

What I really want to say is, today is my 2nd day back at work. After a ‘successful’ day last Friday, today I am feeling oh sooo sooo lost! I just cannot wait to go home and see all my little (and not so little) angels.

60 days could not have gone any faster than it did. Adding 2 weeks of MC prior to my maternity leave, I have been away from the office for 76 solid days! And today, I’m back at work.  Didn’t feel like a week, what more 76 days! Why lah all good things must come to an end so quickly?

It has been a good day so far at work, mainly because *Warning – vain mode ahead: * Quite a number of people commented that I’ve lost a lot of weight and that I’m glowing. *blink blink blink* Even the tea lady said “nampak lagi muda lah sekarang”. Eche che wah. Kasik chan la haaaa.. bukan selalu apa orang nak puji I kan. :D. (Shahril will never hear the end of this of course. Hehe..)

Did nothing much today, as expected. That’s the beauty of starting work on Friday after so long. Nobody is expecting anything (yet) from me, giving me a whole day to warm up and hopefully by Monday I’ll be ‘warm’ enough to work on top speed. Hopefully.

I’ve started sending Adreena to the nursery since Monday so that I can get some ‘me’ time before I start work. Sending her on the first day wasn’t easy though. Belum keluar rumah lagi, air mata dah meleleh dah. And every baby I saw that day (went to the bank, mall etc) reminded me of her. But we both survived the day, tough girls that we are.

Having 4 days free all to myself, I did something I’ve never done before. Watched 3 movies in 3 days in a row! Hehe. Watched ‘Did you hear about the Morgans’ (alone) on Monday, Sherlock Holmes (also alone) on Tuesday and Avatar in 3D (with Shahril) on Wednesday. I must say, I really like all 3 movies. The Morgans were really funny, Holmes was brilliant (I have a soft spot for Jude Law anyway), and Avatar was simply great (it was my first time watching anything 3D). And I’m glad I took the time to spend with myself like that. It felt good.

Tomorrow Adreena will turn 2 months old. I’ve been meaning to write a dedicated entry about the whole ordeal of her arrival 2 months ago, but I guess that will have to wait (yet again). :)

Back at work

This time I’ll let the pictures do the talking :)

04012010How my day started yesterday. Breakfast before going to the Little Caliphs.

cake How the day ended yesterday. (This was after Johnny’s Steamboat. Hehe)

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How the day started today. Note the new sparkling white new shoes. :)

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2 pairs of sparkling new shoes??

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Tadaaaa…

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One school boy and one nursery girl.. with their new shoes

(bangun tidur, tukar baju (“kita tak nak mandi!”) tapi nak pakai kasut baru. Sikat rambut pun taknak, which explains the hair. :D

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Another pose, dengan mata sembab

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Afiq with his Ultraman pose, while waiting for the van. “Mama, kenapa van Aunty-Kak Liza ni tak sampai2 pun Ma?”

Not to forget,

03122009(003) Adreena day dreaming (this was a while back)

And last but not least,

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Adreena saying, yo peeps!

It’s my birthday today.

It’s also Afiq’s first day at kindergarten. Like all mothers I believe, I was more excited and nervous than the boy himself.

P1010267Afiq – ready for school bright and early

P1010272Senyum paksa, sebab nak suruh Mama cepat sikit, he wanted to go inside to check out the toys. :)

As expected, everything went smoothly. He has always been very independent, so going to a new environment like this does not bother him at all. Mariessa on the other hand is very different from Afiq. That was why, also as expected, after we sent Afiq off at the Little Caliphs, Mariessa punya lah menangis + meraung when we dropped her off at her nursery. I guess with Afiq not being there with her, she feels insecure. Sayu hati Mama.

At 11.30, I went to pick Afiq up. When asked how was school, he said, “Best sgt2, Mama!” :) When told that Mariessa menangis kat nursery, terus dia risau. We stopped by at Giant because I wanted to buy him a pair of proper school shoes. I honestly tak teringat langsung about his shoes. I mean, I thought he didn’t need one since the learning is indoors anyway, tapi pagi tadi bila hantar dia kat sekolah tu, rasa tak cukup handsome pulak without the shoes. Hehe. So I told him that we were going to get him shoes first at Giant, and then I’ll send him to the nursery. Afiq said, “kita shopping cepat2 je k Mama? Nanti adik tunggu abang”. Mariessa’s lucky to have Afiq, don’t you think?

Tomorrow Afiq’s going to school by the ‘van’ pulak. I cannot believe all these are happening already. It certainly didn’t seem like 5 years since I first held him in my arms. 

So that’s how I celebrate my 32nd birthday. At least so far. :) And tomorrow is the 44th day of my confinement period which is officially the last day. So Yey! :D

It’s also my first birthday without Ummi. :(


Adreena didn’t sleep well last night. That of course means, I had a bad night. I should really be sleeping right now, now that she’s asleep. Tapi tak boleh pulak. O well.

It’s already day 37! How time flies. 23 days left until I have to return to work. :( And it’s only 7 days until my confinement period is officially over. If confinement is 44 days lah. Some says it’s 40 days. Which one is right eh? Not that it matters sgt pun to be honest. I HAVE sneaked out a few times, hehe. With Shahril of course. Partner in crime. :D

On the 30th day of confinement, we went out for my post natal checkup at which I was told that I still have “byk masa lagi” to have another one before I turn 38 – the recommended age of stopping ‘production’. Hehe. Adreena had her checkup with her pediatrician too at which we were told she is doing superb. She cried her lungs out kena cucuk, sampaikan the doctor commented, “Mama, your baby nangis memang volume 5 terus ye?” That’s my girl alright. :).

Guess where we went after the checkup? Vacuum cleaner shopping. Haha. At Harvey Norman @ Ikano no less. :) I’ve been eyeing the Ergorapido since I saw one at Ngah’s house. Didn’t feel the urgent need for it until I become a stay-at-home-mom (albeit for only 60 days). The thing I hate the most about vacuuming is plugging the power you see, so Ergorapido is really the solution for me. Mengada2 I know, but I really hate the cables and all.

So I’m a vacuum cleaner freak now. That makes me a much happier person. :D

And kelmarin, we sneaked out again. This time to Jusco Cheras Selatan. It was our engagement anniversary. (At this point, any reason to celebrate can and will bring me out of the house, really. :) ). Looking back, if anyone were to tell me during my engagement that 6 years from then I’ll be having 3 kids of my own, I don’t think I would believe it, or know what to DO with 3 kids. But alhamdulillah, I am truly blessed to kinda know now what to do with 3 kids. ;). Most of the times, at least.

Here’s a photo of Adreena on her 18th day on Earth. :). More will come soon, I promise.

 

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